I Stay Awake

by Janet Smith

Asleep, you are a forest crossed
by deep rivers. What I know of you
breathes down at the tap root;
your body turns heavily, a drowned
log. The pale bed, restless as a moored
boat, floats on the floor’s dark flood.

You say you don’t remember dreams,
only a knife moving in the air, a drum
beating, a word said by a strange
figure. I am afraid to see the eyeballs
move under their lids. I will be a mouse
and sidle along the mopboards.

I know how the door tenses when
you moan. The room recedes into its
corners. Your waterfalls and tidal waves,
the plunge and plum dark of your
deepest sea--you descend alone.
Your palm is an anemone.

Quay note: also by this author Its Other Name